24 March 2016
journey's end [6 years in cambodia + 1 year in canada]
3 April 2014
the holy dare [5 years in cambodia]
Our fifth year here has flown by - with such joy & also such sadness.
Last year, I asked for prayers that this year we would have eyes to really see & that we would have perspective to Be.Here.Now.
As it turns out, some prayers are soul scorching.
As the year unfolded, more often than not, the seeing felt like a dare. Were we brave enough to look into the eyes of the old woman begging at our ankles, as we traveled festively to the Christmas dinner? Would we watch the mentally disabled young man wandering the streets outside our office every day - look & not quickly glance away in discomfort? Watch the videos, the too-gory-for-our-sheltered-eyes photos of young people, the ones who make our very clothes, bleeding in the streets in pools of rage & shattered hopes? Know that we were here, but not there? Look & see all the times we couldn't stop anything.
Would we see & see & keep seeing? Open our hearts to all the ways the world is bitterly cruel & tragically unsafe?
& at the same time, proclaim (in broken whispers, nothing more) that God is Good. God is Love. Because of his Love we are Not Consumed. Did we dare to do that?
And somewhere in the midst of all this seeing , I found myself watching as a tiny body - born, but not to life - entered the flames. And as his parents melted in grief, the only prayer any of us could muster was a pleading "Be.Here.Now". In my request at this year's beginning, I had envisioned those words, that prayer, as a triumphant call to find joy in the moment. (And this year has held such glory for us - new words, first steps, travels, dance-filled bluegrass shows, overwhelming fellowship & love beyond what we ever could have asked)
[first steps for ezzie: kep, winter 2014
photo by steve chee]
And yet, this year the prayer was also turned, flipped right upside down into a unrelenting call for Divine Accompaniment - repeated over & over for days (maybe a lifetime?) on end.
Immanuel - God.With.Us. the only answer to Job's dilemma & ours & the whole wide world's.
And so I come to the end of this year with palms (at times begrudgingly) open - thankful for the sacredness that filled a year's worth of spaces & walking on in that Promised Presence.
Come what may.
30 March 2013
fruit & the journey [4 years in cambodia]
3 May 2012
international workers' day
9 January 2012
this is what injustice looks like [borei keila]
3 November 2011
on knowing another culture [3 years in cambodia]
well.... yes & no. our time here has passed in the blink of an eye, life here has been much easier than we expected - filled with such joy, friendships & travel. but also harder too as we've had to un-learn a lot of the things, beliefs, assumptions, & cultural certitudes we thought we knew. & we thought were solid docking points & that sort of education can be quite unsettling.
so, while clarity will likely always elude us as we encounter life in all its complexity, what have we learned after 3 years here in Cambodia?
o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o o
that we all, all, all need mercy & grace.
that even when we don our best results-based-management-theory, the outcomes are hard to measure. that maybe transformation can't be written into a logframe. that the process is the development.
*i'm not sure where this quote comes from & google is no help - sorry to whoever first said this!
** a disclaimer - actually the bulk of our work takes place in an office, but those pictures are not interesting, so i'm posting the field visit ones!
29 April 2011
conquering the mekong
28 April 2011
Cooking Up Justice
30 March 2011
siesta
23 March 2011
escape to the seaside [kep]
25 February 2011
the littlest traveler [cedar moves to cambodia]
31 December 2010
25 November 2010
blessed are those who mourn
Over the past decade the international community has tried hard to persuade Cambodia that an international tribunal was necessary to heal Cambodia’s past, to reconcile the nation, to bring closure. To date the tribunal has seemed an alien legal process, far the from reality of everyday lives and certainly not a mechanism for healing deep seated pains and loss.
While this has been a deep and great tragedy for Cambodia, something else is going on here. This country has become united in its grief. People are coming together to put right, something which was very wrong. They are standing together to mourn their country people, fully aware that those who died were the least among them, and now deserve the highest honour for their tragic end. And of course all of us looking on wonder how they can bear more suffering, more grief and more pain.
Great Compassion makes a Peaceful Heart.
A peaceful Heart makes a Peaceful Person.
A Peaceful Person makes a Peaceful Community.
A Peaceful Community makes a Peaceful Nation.
And a Peaceful Nation makes a Peaceful World.
May all beings live in Happiness and Peace.
Perhaps Maha understood that it is the yoke Cambodians must bear on behalf of us all. People who come to Cambodia often comment of the smiles of the children, the happiness of the people. They marvel at the sense of fun, and joy in simple pleasures. They speak of the open hearted way Cambodians welcome them, embrace them and befriend them. Perhaps this is what Maha speaks of – the joy that is born of suffering. Perhaps Cambodia suffers so much so that compassion can be.
For the past 48 hours Cambodian television channels have received donations from around the country for the victims’ families and the injured survivors. No amount is too small to announce on the television recognising the contributions of even the poorest people. From this suffering comes great compassion.
Each step is a prayer, each step is a meditation, each step will build a bridge."
12 October 2010
& what do you do?
and while i'm at it, MCC British Columbia just came out with its Prayer Booklet for 2011. If you have a moment, you can read about the experiences of MCC workers in British Columbia, Colombia, Cambodia, El Salvador, and Zambia. (we're on page 21 & 22, click the image to download)
7 April 2010
our neighborhood [hannah visits cambodia part 1]
18 February 2010
MCC BC stories booklet
I do not at all understand the mystery of God’s grace – only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us.
-Anne Lammott, Traveling Mercies
Daniel & Amanda Talstra, MCC
Our MCC assignment involves spending the majority of our time working at the
We see God working in the people we meet who are working for the poor and marginalized in their own country.
Prayer requests:
- that Cambodian leaders will be wise and honest in their work.
- that God would provide for all those who are hungry, especially children who have high rates of malnourishment.
- for the Cambodian church to work in unity and serve as a powerful witness to Christ
- for us, that we would be diligent in the work we have been called to do and loving to all those around us.



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